Anxiously Waiting....

My new blog!  Something different but something SOOOOOO me!!  But I've got to wait because it has to be done just the way I want it.

Changes...

Just got an idea to do something new blogwise....now to come up with an AWESOMERY name

OH Halloween....

Good ole Halloween!! A night for people to let their "freak flag fly." And I ain't no different...decided this year that I would be Catwoman. And it still feels like that dang mask is on my face. Had a fun night with my JadaBear at the Interscope party. Still can't believe Will.I.Am was deejaying for a minute and no one noticed. Guess it was that Big Bad Wolf mask he was wearing.

It Ain't Trickin' If You Got It....

Time to start making this work
For ME!!

Circles.

Sometimes you run so hard

to get away...

That you don't realize

you ran in a

Circle.

Sometimes where you started

is where you belong.

Music playing: Etta James, "At Last"

WTF?!?!!!!!!

Okay...normally I'm a pretty cool chick. I've got friends of all colors, and I understand that every now and again everyone can slip into an improper characterization of someone of another background. But hell...when I do it...I own up to what I did. Yeah I said that...and it was wrong...and I'm sorry. But to say something extremely blatant and then have the audacity to insult my intelligence and state your "words were taken out of context." Give me a big EFFIN' break.

What am I talking about you ask? Well I am talking about the email sent by Officer Justin Barrett of the Boston Police. Now as I stated, I understand we all make mistakes when we are a little fired up, but calling a black man a "jungle monkey" on FOUR separate occasions in one email is more than a mere mistake. So Officer Barrett, that bullshit apology you gave....KEEP IT!! And even more keep the ever so typical "I have Black friends so I couldn't be racist" crap to yourself also. You called the man a "jungle monkey" and also said "banana eating"...so that whole "my words were taken out of context" shit is just that...SHIT. And hey lawyer guy...as a future attorney myself, I understand standing up for your client but for you FOOLS ever choose to insult my intelligence with your crap is beyond offensive. "Officer Barrett did not call professor Gates a jungle monkey or malign him racially," Marano said. "He said his behavior was like that of one. It was a characterization of the actions of that man." Guess what dumbasses...characterizations are the basis of racial epithets such as that. People weren't saying Black people were literally monkeys...they were saying they looked like them, walked like them, ate like them, acted like them. Guess what that is....a fucking CHARACTERIZATION!! I'm sorry for the language but this seriously pisses me off. Officer Barrett I might have considered taking your apology on its face value, however that crap you and your attorney pulled totally ruins that idea. You are a sad representation of what the "Blue Brass" is all about...you are a poor excuse for an officer and the reason Henry Louis Gates felt threatened by the presence of police officers in HIS home. All you cops out there...thank Officer Barrett for continuing the tradition of arrogant, ignorant men in power...no matter what color they are.

How Can You Not Believe...

When you see places like Aruba...

How can you not believe there is a God?

This is more than just science..

this is from the eye of one that sees beauty in everything.

Big Girl Decisions to Make....

Gifts...and Benefits

It's time to come out of this scared shell.
I've got a marvelous life to live
and I can't live it while shrinking away
from my GOD-given purpose.

I have to perfect my talent
so I can pursue my
GIFT!

No music....just basketball playing in the background
GO Nuggets!!

It grows more and more
every single day.


Music Playing: Drake "Best I Ever Had"

Sometimes I get a little....
Crazy!!!

Glad he knows that's not all i got.


Music Playing: Trey Songz "I Need A Girl"

Love Lesson #2

After this weekend I've learned a few essential things about life and love.

Crazy thing is if I'd have listened to God from the start

these lessons may not have hurt so much.

I Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

He gives us the words we should live by...

we should start listening and paying close attention.

Music playing: Kirk Franklin "First Love"

Love Lesson #1

Love and self-worth come from within.
I could never give that to you

Music playing: Adele "Make YOu Feel My Love"

its not hatin', its educatin'

Bia!! Ain't nobody "hatin'" on your relationship.
they are simply trying to school you on
the man you now want to call your
"gummi bear."

Tigers never change their stripes.
And believe me....
i know that Tiger very well.

Music playing: Keyshia Cole feat. Missy Elliott and Lil Kim "Let It Go"

Ahhh yess!!!

Its gonna be a marvelous summer.

Beyonce July 13th in LA and July 30th in Vegas....Check.

Aruba with the fam June 19th through 26th...Check.

25th Celebration of my birth...Check.

Time spent with the ones I love...Check.

Whoo hoo

Music playing: Destiny's Child "Lose My Breath"

Delete...

One word I would like to delete from the current lexicon:
SWAG!!!

SEriously when I hear a female say, "But he's got SWAG!"
All I really hear is...
"He's charismatic and will end up treating me like SHIT!"

I don't know...
maybe its just me.



Music playing: Trey Songz feat. Jim Jones "Fly Together"

Life Lesson #3

though the saying goes,
"YOu can't judge a book by its cover",
we should realize that if it ain't an interesting cover
No one will look twice.

Remember you must make a great first impression
because a second glance is not promised.

Music playing: Fabolous and Red Cafe "I'm the Man"

Life Lesson #2

When you begin to work for "the Kingdom" the rest just falls into place.

Ready to stake my claim for HIM.

Music playing: G.A. and Tye Tribbett "Victory"

Yessss!!!!!

Damn it pays to be persistent....

Found what I was looking for.

compliments of: melodyehsani.com

Persistent: lasting or enduring tenaciously

Music playing: The-Dream "Fancy"

Is it weird that I want this next???

New tattoo is needed....

Searching for inspiration

Music playing: Day26 "Imma Put It On Her"

being loved is the best feeling in the world.

Flaws and All takes on a new meaning
"I'm a bitch in the afternoon...every now and then without warning i can be really mean towards you"
And he stays anyway...
he doesn't have to say anything but i know

HE LOVES ME


Music playing: B' "Flaws and All"
Jill Scott "He Loves Me (Lyzel in E Flat)"

Life Lesson Numero 1

Life Lesson from last week's activities.....

Being in love doesn't stop being in like.

Caramel and I will always be on the verge of "more than" but he will never be "all of..." That relationship gives me an outlet...somewhere to focus when reality seems too much. Its an escape from the one thing I've always been in fear of....

SUCCESS.

In love...in life...in career...in anything.

Been too afraid to live up to my full potential. My relationship is showing me that success is OK.

Music playing: Erykah Badu "Next Lifetime"

Get this off my chest....

"Her Heart" though???

My favorite song relegated to the ringtone of a
"Candy Girl".....

UGH!!!



Music playing: Destiny's Child "Bad Habit"

OUTTY 5000

i need to go somewhere not now but RIGHT NOW...

where to go???

well here are a few of my fave summer places....

and some places i want to visit before i start school

i'm realizing i'm not a girl meant to be in one place very long

word of the day: IMPULSIVE - actuated or swayed by emotional or involuntary impulses

Music playin': Madonna "Candy Shop"

Decision MADE!!!

It's all about ME snitches!!!

I don't give two craps about what the rest of them suckas are up to...because these days the most intriguing thing to me is ME. I learn something new about myself and this wonderful world everyday so thats what I shall blog about. The many things that are revealed to me through my life experiences. Whoo hoo! This should be tons o' fun

Music playing: Usher "Lifetime"

In A DREAM State...

Well blogosphere here I am....

So I've decided to join the ranks of the bloggers. I love to write so this will definitely be my outlet. Much more my speed than instant "status updates" because God knows I've got more to say than 150 characters. LOL

Still haven't decided the direction of this blog...like will i comment on my life solely...or will I choose to incorporate my many opinions on sports, celebs and life in general...oh and fashion. I'm not sure yet. Guess we shall see as I move along how this will work.

What I do know is....The-Dream is definitely playing in my ear...and I'm thinking...damn this dude is a producer for SURE!!!

Off to work...hehehehe yeah right...and find trips to take this summer with my hunny and my bff's. Toodles <3

Music playing: The-Dream "Love vs. Money Pt2"